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I really do believe in Jesus and his word. He has delivered me from a two car crashes - one of which I fell asleep with my foot on the gas, ran through 4 yards, smashed into a parked car & rolled mine 3 times. I popped out without a scratch. 5 months later I overdosed on a fake 30mg Percocet pill & spent 4 days in a coma. I now have 15 months sober. I say all this not to base my faith on experiences but just to let you know that no matter what - he has always been gracious to me. I should be dead two times - but I’m not. & for that, I am blessed. My God is faithful & GOOD. But now I find my flesh waging a new battle against my spirit. Sex/porn. I find myself abstaining for a short amount of time & then falling down hard again. I know how the Lord feels about these things & that terrifies me.. I am so deserving of hell. Like really?!! after all he’s done for me I still want to live for my flesh & the world? It makes no senses. I hate it. And a lot of the times I hate me. Would you please pray that he removes these bonds of wickedness from me? & that he would continue to be patient with me? & remember that I am dust. I can’t do it on my own - I need his help & your prayers. I’m on my third life (Job 33:14-30) & I don’t want to waste it. Thank you <3