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EmyG had surgery on Thursday to place the permanent dialysis catheter. She is doing well in general, but the surgical site is continuing to bleed. The drs are doing a work up now to figure out why and how to get it stop. All previous measures have failed.
I have three grandchildren, needing prayer. They have been through a lot of turmoil - Dad left them a few years ago. Mom, a believer waited for him and prayed fervently for about five years ago, but recently remarried and moved to St cloud but continued their Christian school and work here commuting daily. Now she wants to put them in one near where they live -they are heartbroken. Dad now wants them to be with them and he will get them to the school down here, not probably out of the goodness of his heart, but so with a half time arrangement he would not have to pay child support.
Honestly, I don’t even know where to start. I love God, I really do. But most days I don’t feel the love to be reciprocated. My soul knows this is nowhere near the truth but my mind and heart deceive me ALL the day long. I relate to Paul, simply due to the fact that I do the things I DONT want to do, and the thing I DO want to do, I DO NOT. I struggle with drug addiction, lust, (although I have been celibate for 3 months) mental health, and overall keeping on the straight and narrow. My heart yearns to do right. But somehow Satan always finds a way to knock me off balance. I have sleep paralysis pretty regularly and I am attacked by demons. They are dark figures who tell me God can’t save me. But you wanna know how I KNOW I’m saved ? Because the Holy spirit intercedes on my behalf ! I pray in my dreams. Isn’t that amazing ? I unconsciously pray in my dreams, my mentor says this isn’t me but my spirit crying out to God, which ONLY a Christian/Holy Spirit can DO. A few months back in September I took Xanax and fell asleep at the wheel. I accelerated to over 60mph, went through 4 different yard, totaled a car in a driveway, and rolled my car 3 times. I missed and oak tree by less then 6 inches. I popped out without a scratch. God saved me. During that period of life I had just began to read Miracles by C.S. Lewis (one of my favorite authors) I had asked my mentor why miracles didn’t seem to happen as much as in the “old days” and if they did nobody spoke of them as openly (as they should) He said they do we just don’t hear about them, Satan blinds the minds of many. Anyways I had asked God for a miracle of my own, and that is exactly what he gave me. But if I KNOW this to be true, and I fully believe in God, then why do I struggle to live like it. You would think, after all I’ve seen, heard, experienced, I would have faith like a mustard seed. But I don’t. I depend on a 30mg Percocet pill to give me the warmth and love I so desire. I’m sorry for such an essay. If you’ve made it to this point then God bless your soul, mind and body ❤️ Please pray for me and my assurance of salvation.
My nose bleeds every day. I am really scared.
EmyG’s hemodialysis is going so well, the dr thinks she may be able to wait longer for the permanent peritoneal dialysis catheter to be placed. That means she will have a chance to grow and develop so when that permanent catheter is placed she will be better able to handle it! We are so excited by God’s answer to prayers! If you would like to follow EmyG’s blog, her parents maintain, it’s babymenon.com You will also be able to see more pictures of her there.
Prayers for my daughter, her husband & their 7 adopted Native American children. The oldest grandson left home before turning 18 last fall, with no contact since before Thanksgiving. The oldest granddaughter (17) was in Lutheran Social Services youth facility for over a year & returned home before Christmas. It's been rocky since then, but there was a major fight last night, which included topics of drug use & unapproved driving activities. She was picked up by a friend & does not have phone to contact. 16-year-old grandson is in a youth facility in SW Iowa, which is closing, so a different facility needs to be found in 30-60 days. There are still four other kids at home from 5-13, who need focused support.
For Joni: Deliverance from Facebook, anger, and selfishness. For her to show her husband Ashley respect, love, affection, and intimacy. For any evil spirits to be broken off Joni. Pray for salvation for Jayden and Mikayla, and for deliverance from drugs and alcohol.